To test?

Day 12. I could test tomorrow morning. I'm scared. I'm scared of either result, or just having a result. not that it's the final word, but it's a lot of effort each time, and it would be 4 late days of work for the ultrasounds, unless the first one were Friday, that would be ok. But theres no getting out of at least 2 missed half days. Maybe the dr could refer me to someone closer to do the ultrasounds. Maybe it's just not meant to be. no symptoms today.