Test tomorrow

I'm going to test tomorrow morning before I leave on vacation. It's 2 days early, but according to the test, it should be 90% accuracy. I think it very well may be negative. I'm feeling pretty premenstrual. Crampy. I've read that's how it feels sometimes. My only real symptom is the smell sensitive, but even that isn't connected to nausea. I'm spreading my mom's ashes next week. It would be a little less depressing if I thought I was going to have a baby soon. I think she would have like that, though what she most wanted for me was a husband. I definitely let her down there, so far. And I guess I do think I'll a kid soon, if not March 8 as I was hoping. Maybe I need to be less sad for the kid to want t oland.