Symptoms?

Day 8. I'm a little tired, eating nonstop, twinges in uterus\ovaries, sensitive to smells- I smell cologne and cigarette smoke everywhere. I started crying at a Mike and the Mechanics song. Also I think I had a hot flash in the car, but it is 97 degrees here, so maybe my Seattle innards were boiling a little. I felt very short moments of nausea. I don't think my boobs are sore. I think it's in there though. And if it's not, the dr says I have to take next month off. Since I'll be out of town for a week when my cycle would start if I'm not knocked up, I can't get to the dr office for the baseline ultrasound. I guess another month wait isnt the end of the world. After 5 months on drugs, maybe it could use a break.

5 days post

So if the egg was fertilized, today it's a blastocyte, ready to implant. No signs of that, though tomorrow thru tuesday seem like more likely timing.

Big day- IUI

I did my tigger shot Saturday night and the IUI today, 36 hours later. It went fine, but who knows? It took dr a while to find my cervix and get the catheter in there, but he said that wasn't a sign of poor timing. I decided to lounge around today instead of rushing off to work. Maybe that helped? I snapped at my boss and hate work today- maybe it's the hormones? I'm feeling like I can't say here. I've been reading Anne Lamott's book"operating instructions" about the first year of her son's life and her being a single mom. It made me hopeful that male figures will come out of the woodwork and friends will come along and help me out. And I'm starting to think it will be very love filled.

2 shots tonight

I went for another ultrasound today. The dr was pleased with one 19 mm follicle. He can't help but comment on my age, so he said my ovarian reserve was good for a woman of my late age. he said we would have good egg reserve if we did IVF. Wtf?! The egg looks good for IUI on Monday and he's planning for what happens if it fails? That's lame-o. I guess the odds are that we are not dne, but it seems like everything is on track! Except I have a 10:30 IUI and an important 10am call for work. Will I do it from out front of the clinic? Fake an illness and reschedule? Today gonal f and ovifrel trigger. I'm not sure I kept it in the fridge and now I read it is supposed to be kept cold. Oopsy.

Inject!

I went for an ultrasound today, day 7, and the dr was happy with the follicular development. One was already 14 cm. I go back in in 2 days and it may already be time to trigger, so the IUI could be Monday. I feel confident. I just did my first night of shots and it wasn't bad at all! The whiskey may have helped. I had 3 drinks. Hopefully i did it right. Now I think I could do it for 2 weeks just fine.

Day 5- should feel something?

I cant remember, even with the help of my blog, how much or when the pain pings started. I think it may have just been around ovulation and so it's not weird that I don't feel anything yet. I'm concerned it won't work, since i didn't ovulate last month on Clomid. There was motion though, it just didn't keep growing once I stopped taking it. Maybe nothing to worry about. A friend had a positive preg test today. She's 10 years younger than I am!

Another day 1

Day 1- AF is back. I'm happy to see it this month. The dr did an ultrasound to make sure there were no cysts and that the little follicles were getting into position. That went fine. Also the nurse showed me how to inject the drugs, so that was handy. Now 5 days of Clomid then another ultrasound Thursday- which means trying to come up with an excuse why I'm not at work that morning. I think my boss will be gone for a week and maybe that will help. I think I have to go in for 2 more ultrasounds the following week and the IUI. The thing about the drugs that makes me nervous is the needle- the nurse said stick it all the way in and I'm not quite sure what that means. It doesn't sound comfy. She said ifni was scared we could practice, but for some dumb reason I denied being scared. I'm not really scared, I'm just not confident, More broadly, I am torn what's happening or what to root for. I'm looking at houses tomorrow. How many bedrooms do I need? Is an hour too long to commute if I do have a kid? Does any working woman spend fewer than 10 hours a day away? Oh, and I stopped seeing the guy I'd been dating. Told him I was planning to have a baby- that did it.